As a Deer...

that my heart is longing You (or so I think the lyrics go... since I'm more sure of Polish version of my favourite worship song). And I do long, because it's a relief, and I need one. But is longing enough? I don't feel so strong as a Christian yet, and I'm a little embarrassed of it.

Taiwan has it hard on me recently. I don't know if this is some homesickness, but generally I don't want to be at home... I just don't want to be in Taiwan for a moment. It's just so lonely here. And because of that small things makes so angry that I want to cry. Like yesterday... I was waiting for a girl to leave from a scooter parking space in front of my fitness club... I waited pretty long (she was getting ready by putting the mask, helmet, and what not), and then when she was gone and I started maneuvering to get to her place some Taiwanese old guy just rode fast into the place. I wanted to scream, I felt so helpless... I couldn't even scold him in Chinese. Grrrrrrrrrr. And I know not all Taiwanese are like that... but recently this things happens to me sooo often (maybe because I have scooter) and it is so hard to talk to anyone about serious things. Because who ever I talk to, all I can get from them "I'm fine". 1) I don't believe they are. 2) Ok, I get it... you're fine, then let's talk about something else!

I really need to give up on some people, I try to hard to be their friends and then I get "I'm fine" in the end... :/

The only good thing now is sport! Injecting endomorphism into my veins is just nice~ and it's good to feel more fit :) especially at the beginning people judge me as a lazy person who eat only hamburgers and do nothing, and then I love to kick their asses showing off how wrong they are :D Still some people seem to think even though I exercise a lot I must be laing about the food I eat since I'm still fat. Well it's not the same easy for everyone to be slim... it's not me who chose to be this way. I would also prefer to be like so many Asians... eating loads of sugars and fats and stay skinny :/

You see... I'm just angry about everything recently ... :/

Sorry Sorry Naka Naka and I don't wanna cry alone

I must confess I am easily addicted to music recently. It's like those songs get to my head and heart for few days and play on and on, untill I find new songs! Last week was totally Lenka's week. This week I'm giving her a break and replying KAT-TUN's Rescue and Super Junior's Sorry Sorry :D And I actually don't like those songs because of the cute guys, they're just nice bonus:D Also yesterday I got an album of Meiko. I totally randomly decided to give her a chance, and it was so worth it. I know she will be my music theme for another week!

But since tomorrow we have the BIG exam, I need more energy and the energetic Asian guys works well for that. So... Sorry sorry sorry naka naka naka *one leg, the other leg, one round with your body and so on*.

I must admit though I'm really trying to ignore "Rescue" lyrics... most of it it's in (bad) English, so understanding is not a problem... but it is totally depressing. LOL! Good my Korean is non-exsisting:D

Also yesterday I went to the Monday body combat class (before I only go on Sundays). I loved it! More people, more energy! It was more tiring, but whatever... we were even shouting with the punches and all that crazy feel of "battle mode". Know I just want continue practicing punches :P And cannot stop wondering how different it must be to actaully punch a person. Not that I'm looking forward to a chance for that :D