now... my world got simple. Possible romance thoughts passed and now I am focusing on material aspects of life, because they're simply the "strong" side of it, at least now.
Personality is really hard to control, especially if someone is as emotional person as me. Body, well, it's not easy to start controlling it, but once you do it is quite enjoyable. So I am working on it now, 2 hours a day at least, still watching what I'm eating and drinking, and constantly having some sour muscles. But it makes me happier, in a small way, because I challenge myself, and I am winning! And it's good to know that if I really want to I can win with myself.
And then shopping... recently money are ok with me. I don't have a fortune, but I'm not lacking either. So I buy small but pretty stuff from time to time to forget the total loneliness I am facing here in Taiwan. I totally gave up on the childish hopes that I can get a friend here, not to mention a boyfriend. On shallow level me and Taiwanese are just great, but when I want to move it deeper (and I always want to), they just leave me without a word. For me it's pretty cruel, but they are emotionally really selfish people. At least from my experience, and of course I know, I know... it's not EVERYONE... but those people must be very rare. I mean "my" people, because I don't doubt other people can find here what their "own" kind of people, it's just me that is a problem, obviously. Well wow, you see I always like to go deep :D
Saturday, January 30, 2010
physical world
0 commentsPosted by Agnes C.D. at 11:47
Labels: just me talking, Taiwan
Saturday, October 24, 2009
vampire world
0 commentsPosted by Agnes C.D. at 11:26
Labels: Taiwan, Twilight, vampires books
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Googler wannabe
1 commentsahh... today I'm in pretty good mood. Doesn't happen so often recently! Well... days pass like crazy... I want to turn on the slow motion option~
Posted by Agnes C.D. at 21:49
Labels: Firefox, Google, Google Chrome, job
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
As a Deer...
3 commentsthat my heart is longing You (or so I think the lyrics go... since I'm more sure of Polish version of my favourite worship song). And I do long, because it's a relief, and I need one. But is longing enough? I don't feel so strong as a Christian yet, and I'm a little embarrassed of it.
Posted by Agnes C.D. at 22:09
Labels: anger issues, fitness, Taiwan
Saturday, August 15, 2009
socializing
0 commentsok... could be last moments of my freedom, before my professor is back with all my troubles. So last few days I was enjoying our time with my new room mate :) Thursday was reaaaally nice... first we went hunting/shopping to Sogo. And well I must have a bad day because I spent a little too much, but at last I got an outfit that I wanted to have... long sweater/tunic, wide leather belt and another pair of leggings :D and unfortunately, Mango in here does not have my size when it comes to pants ://////// well online store hopefully delivers to Taiwan :D
Thursday, August 6, 2009
back at home
2 commentsyep... I am back in Taiwan and I feel like being back home. Kind of relieved from who knows what. The day is pretty busy... meeting new landlord, packing, soon moving, cleaning and shopping. All that still tonight (and it's 4 PM already!). And why oh why it pouring down!!! And typhoon is coming tomorrow ==;; so I need to move tonight... because between typhoon and rain... the rain wins. I hope my friend who is so kind to help me with his car to move all that stuff will be patient enough.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
25+
0 commentsI know it's over 2 weeks after my bd, but this year this day was strange. My bd was stretched to like a month, when people kept on giving me presents and wishes. I really didn't feel the change. I kind of treated myself as 25 for a while, since I'm all mature and all compared to many ppl around me or so I and them think. And yet I am 25 and in the middle of my prime time in life. I am pretty successful in eyes of many people but for myself I don't feel that way, especially that I know many greater people around me. And yet it is time to start using 25+ creams and cosmetics profilatically to keep the youth. Heh.
Posted by Agnes C.D. at 17:04